Heaviness is back.
My heart weighs so much.
How could it on a beautiful morning?
There's a hardness there, too.
It is icy blue.
I want it to be a soft, comfortable green.
04 October 2009
I found this interesting.. Farrah's brainy side.
A recent email exchange with the late Farrah Fawcett reveals the unlikely friendship between the Charlie's Angels star and the novelist Ayn Rand, who helped the actress understand her place in culture-and longed to cast her in a TV version of Atlas Shrugged. Here's a link to this interesting article. http://www.thedailybeast.com/blogs-and-stories/2009-06-25/farrahs-brainy-side/
I do believe her true acting chops showed in her stellar performances in The Burning Bed and The Apostle (a great film if you haven't seen it, with Robert Duvall).
I do believe her true acting chops showed in her stellar performances in The Burning Bed and The Apostle (a great film if you haven't seen it, with Robert Duvall).
03 October 2009
Starting Disc 2, Season 2, Mad Men, art
Even though the characters are shallow, the writing & cinematography are average, the styles are so damn lovely. The beginning always has that catchy, Hitchcockian bit, too, which fools you into thinking you are going to watch something with depth. It's actually quite a soap opera.
Did anyone see Revolutionary Road with Kate Winslett & Leo Di Caprio? I loved that. I saw it before I saw Mad Men, and I think I was expecting more depth from the characters because of characters in Revolutionary Road. I didn't realize it was based on a book until I read it somewhere today or yesterday. Now I want to read the book.
I think one of the most interesting characters on Mad Men is Bertram Cooper, the older partner. He doesn't get nearly enough air time. He's the one who made me think of Ayn Rand, because he is an obvious devotee. He recommends Atlas Shrugged to some of his employees. Albeit, advised Don Draper to buy a copy, but gave that snake Peter Campbell a copy. I wonder if anyone noticed that. He had this great remark in one of the the 1st season episodes to Don Draper about passion or art or creativity, then this smart ending about how all they really want is to benefit themselves. Ergo, devotee of Ayn Rand. He keeps his office in this very Zen-like manner, and has interesting personal habits. I wonder if the Mad Men creators/writers use this Ayn Rand connection and Frank O'Hara's Meditations in an Emergency to make the show seem smart, since, in my opinion the writing isn't particularly smart. And, once again, the lack of character development. I'm still going to watch it to see what happens, since it's really kind of like a soap opera or 'story' as my Mama used to say.
I did want to give a shout-out to Ms. Randi Davis, who, until tonight, I didn't know had a website. She is quite a renaissance woman. She was a chemical engineer, and now has a career as an artist. She was always an artist, but later in life made it her career. I had the pleasure of meeting this lively woman last weekend. She is one of the people who inspired me to start this blog. http://www.randijanedavis.com/ . Her artwork is soft, kind of ethereal at times, and appears to evolve constantly, from what I have seen, which isn't enough. Oh, to have a brilliant, scientific mind and an artistic mind.
I wonder who in history might also have had a mind with this wonderful combination of science and art. I would argue that science is an art. I don't know why I think that. It just comes to mind when I think of people like Einstein, Galilleo, Margaret Mead & Freud. And whiz-bang woman Randi Davis!
Did anyone see Revolutionary Road with Kate Winslett & Leo Di Caprio? I loved that. I saw it before I saw Mad Men, and I think I was expecting more depth from the characters because of characters in Revolutionary Road. I didn't realize it was based on a book until I read it somewhere today or yesterday. Now I want to read the book.
I think one of the most interesting characters on Mad Men is Bertram Cooper, the older partner. He doesn't get nearly enough air time. He's the one who made me think of Ayn Rand, because he is an obvious devotee. He recommends Atlas Shrugged to some of his employees. Albeit, advised Don Draper to buy a copy, but gave that snake Peter Campbell a copy. I wonder if anyone noticed that. He had this great remark in one of the the 1st season episodes to Don Draper about passion or art or creativity, then this smart ending about how all they really want is to benefit themselves. Ergo, devotee of Ayn Rand. He keeps his office in this very Zen-like manner, and has interesting personal habits. I wonder if the Mad Men creators/writers use this Ayn Rand connection and Frank O'Hara's Meditations in an Emergency to make the show seem smart, since, in my opinion the writing isn't particularly smart. And, once again, the lack of character development. I'm still going to watch it to see what happens, since it's really kind of like a soap opera or 'story' as my Mama used to say.
I did want to give a shout-out to Ms. Randi Davis, who, until tonight, I didn't know had a website. She is quite a renaissance woman. She was a chemical engineer, and now has a career as an artist. She was always an artist, but later in life made it her career. I had the pleasure of meeting this lively woman last weekend. She is one of the people who inspired me to start this blog. http://www.randijanedavis.com/ . Her artwork is soft, kind of ethereal at times, and appears to evolve constantly, from what I have seen, which isn't enough. Oh, to have a brilliant, scientific mind and an artistic mind.
I wonder who in history might also have had a mind with this wonderful combination of science and art. I would argue that science is an art. I don't know why I think that. It just comes to mind when I think of people like Einstein, Galilleo, Margaret Mead & Freud. And whiz-bang woman Randi Davis!
02 October 2009
Skara Brae
One day I would love to see Skara Brae in Northern Scotland. There are these incredible stone structures built underground by very skilled, intelligent stone age folks. I've only seen pictures, but the dwellings have a place for a fire, benches, things one would see in a simple home, all made of stone. They are beautiful in their precision. It's by the sea. Think what beautiful man made stone structures could be in the sea now. Would they be intact? I'll see if I can find a photo and post.
It was discovered about 1850, under grass & soil. What makes it so unique is how well preserved the site was. Here are some pics: (note Neolithic, c. 3100-2500 BC) The 1st is a map of how it would have looked during this period. The 2nd is how is looks today. (just a part of it)
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It was discovered about 1850, under grass & soil. What makes it so unique is how well preserved the site was. Here are some pics: (note Neolithic, c. 3100-2500 BC) The 1st is a map of how it would have looked during this period. The 2nd is how is looks today. (just a part of it)
More about dreams
So the above site has common dream themes & what they mean. Which have you had? Here is the list: (If you click on the theme, it links to the explanation on the site.)
Naked Dreams
Chase Dreams
Teeth Dreams
Flying Dreams
Falling Dreams
Test Dreams
I've had versions of all of these. My favorite dream is when I am floating above everyone. Sometimes it's like I'm attached to a balloon or some other quite device that propels me to the air. These have a sense of possible danger, but are exciting. My favorite is when I'm holding onto a pillow like I would a float in the water and just drifting 1-2 feet off the ground, floating around, looking around. Ohhhhh, how I love dreaming that and wish I could do it in real life. Feels so free. Ha, just read the description & no wonder it feels so good.
All of the other categories are usually anxious dreams. I also have a dream a lot where my vision is impaired. Haven't had the teeth dream in about 5 years-I used to dream a lot that my mouth was filled with metal shards and if I moved it, I would be cut.
I like the site, I'm going to explore some more. Will let you know what I find.
I've had 2 or 3 metaphyscial dreams which I felt were messages of reassurance from God, I've had a few dreams which felt like they were from a past life. I dreamed of Tim and the boys at least once before I ever heard of them. I dreamed of Tim twice before I met him, although I knew who he was. I felt like it was a message that I needed to be a friend to him.
Interestingly, once when I was talking in my sleep, which I do a lot according to Tim, he heard me speak an entire sentence in another language, German he thinks. And I don't know German, although I've had some interesting experiences with things German.
Ta Ta--on to the dream site!
Naked Dreams
Chase Dreams
Teeth Dreams
Flying Dreams
Falling Dreams
Test Dreams
I've had versions of all of these. My favorite dream is when I am floating above everyone. Sometimes it's like I'm attached to a balloon or some other quite device that propels me to the air. These have a sense of possible danger, but are exciting. My favorite is when I'm holding onto a pillow like I would a float in the water and just drifting 1-2 feet off the ground, floating around, looking around. Ohhhhh, how I love dreaming that and wish I could do it in real life. Feels so free. Ha, just read the description & no wonder it feels so good.
All of the other categories are usually anxious dreams. I also have a dream a lot where my vision is impaired. Haven't had the teeth dream in about 5 years-I used to dream a lot that my mouth was filled with metal shards and if I moved it, I would be cut.
I like the site, I'm going to explore some more. Will let you know what I find.
I've had 2 or 3 metaphyscial dreams which I felt were messages of reassurance from God, I've had a few dreams which felt like they were from a past life. I dreamed of Tim and the boys at least once before I ever heard of them. I dreamed of Tim twice before I met him, although I knew who he was. I felt like it was a message that I needed to be a friend to him.
Interestingly, once when I was talking in my sleep, which I do a lot according to Tim, he heard me speak an entire sentence in another language, German he thinks. And I don't know German, although I've had some interesting experiences with things German.
- Once at a dinner party, I totally connected with a woman from Germany who spoke very little English and I spoke no German. We 'talked' for hours. I can't explain it.
- Once I stopped spontaneously at an estate sale and the former owner was German. He had books in German and several concise diaries written in German, which I was compelled to purchase for a small price. I've never had them translated. (yet!)
- Althought I've never been to Germany or been taught the language, sometimes I understand it some in the written and/or spoken word.
- Oddest, of course, speaking a sentence of German in my sleep.
Ta Ta--on to the dream site!
01 October 2009
I came down from my creative high....
Bob Dylan has been on my mind this week. Well, his music has. I love his music. I saw him in concert once and it wasn't the best, I like his albums better. Lots of time how much I enjoy a show depends on my seat. I don't remember where I even saw Dylan. I keep thinking of little snippets... "a hard rain's gonna fall." That's kind of been my week because Tim got laid off this week and I was in shock for a couple of days. I fell asleep watching a documentary called Knee Deep about a young man who shot his mother because she was going to sell the family farm. I don't know how it ended up and I didn't care. I'm pretty numb & paralyzed when I don't want the full scoop.
One writer I really love is John Irving. My favorite novel is A Prayer for Owen Meany, with Cider House Rules a close 2nd. I think I've read all of his novels. Cider House Rules is one of the best film adaptations of a novel I've seen.
I finished the 1st cd of Mad Men, 2nd season tonight. It's interesting, because there was a fellow on NPR today talking about how irritating the show is. It is irritating in that everyone is so shallow. But the characters are just so damn good looking, and the clothes and the decor are so stylish. I heard the treatment of the Kennedy assassination was very unrealistic, but I haven't gotten to that yet. It was good for the numb mind, though.
I feel a lot better, have gotten to a much more positive place about Tim losing his job. I know another opportunity awaits. If we can, we'll have to get out of our contract for the townhouse, and, frankly, I want to. I don't want that hanging over us. So, our realtor is calling the builder tomorrow and hopefully we won't get slammed too badly. I haven't been able to read, I've been quite distracted. However, I do believe in the power of positive thinking, and I'm working my way there. I don't mind not getting the townhouse. I like where we are living now. This is the only country in the world that puts such emphasis on home ownership, and we've owned 4 homes between us. The thought of not being tied to a mortgage is kind of freeing right now. And, I refuse to be embarrassed. It is what it is: life! I feel much gratitude for my life. I wouldn't want any other! And my creativity will return. It's here, just stifled some right now.
Heavy heart,
Busy mind,
Moments of relief and joy
I am.
One writer I really love is John Irving. My favorite novel is A Prayer for Owen Meany, with Cider House Rules a close 2nd. I think I've read all of his novels. Cider House Rules is one of the best film adaptations of a novel I've seen.
I finished the 1st cd of Mad Men, 2nd season tonight. It's interesting, because there was a fellow on NPR today talking about how irritating the show is. It is irritating in that everyone is so shallow. But the characters are just so damn good looking, and the clothes and the decor are so stylish. I heard the treatment of the Kennedy assassination was very unrealistic, but I haven't gotten to that yet. It was good for the numb mind, though.
I feel a lot better, have gotten to a much more positive place about Tim losing his job. I know another opportunity awaits. If we can, we'll have to get out of our contract for the townhouse, and, frankly, I want to. I don't want that hanging over us. So, our realtor is calling the builder tomorrow and hopefully we won't get slammed too badly. I haven't been able to read, I've been quite distracted. However, I do believe in the power of positive thinking, and I'm working my way there. I don't mind not getting the townhouse. I like where we are living now. This is the only country in the world that puts such emphasis on home ownership, and we've owned 4 homes between us. The thought of not being tied to a mortgage is kind of freeing right now. And, I refuse to be embarrassed. It is what it is: life! I feel much gratitude for my life. I wouldn't want any other! And my creativity will return. It's here, just stifled some right now.
Heavy heart,
Busy mind,
Moments of relief and joy
I am.
Dreams
Leslie, I'm sure you don't mind, I decided to start a new thread with your dream. I thought this was quite funny. Stephanie & I have a great friend, Theresa, and once she dreamed she had a litter of kittens! Your dream reminded me of this. I am going to google dream of woman delivering animal or something and see what comes up. It has to mean something! I believe if a dream remains extremely vivid, it definitely has significance.
Also, you are just full of sass & verve. I love it! You are another powerful, creative, entrepreneur, please include a link to your business next time. It inspires me to see women following their dreams (tangible ones!) by having their own businesses.
Julie, I've thought of a different dream I once had which is quite silly and not at all worthy of analysis but still wanted to share ... I can't 'explain' it, but do recall it as vividly as the night I had it over 15 years ago while very pregnant. Like real life, I was nearing the end of my pregnancy but not 100% sure whether I would be delivering a boy or girl but nevertheless sooooo eager to know! Insurance wouldn't cover another sonogram so I had to go with an early report that it was most likely going to be a girl. In the dream I was home in Radford visiting my parents and while in church began to feel serious labor pains ... during "halftime" (goofy dream addition ... what church service has a halftime?!!), I decided it would be best to leave (in reality, I never did like the sermon part anyway hahaha) so off to the hospital we went. While riding in the backseat, I discovered that, like a kangaroo, I actually had a pouch and could actually "peek" inside and know for sure which sex I'd be delivering! Always the adventurous one, I decided to be naughty and sneak a peek. As I opened the pouch and peered in, to my astonishment I saw the cutest but most surprising little thing ... a puppy! As my husband eagerly waited for me to report our child's sex, all I could say is .... "We're going to have ... a beagle!"
- Leslie
added by Julie--since you mentioned beagles, must show you my precious Ryder, dachshund/beagle mix, 1993-2007. I'm going to insert his pic, hopefully will be where it is supposed to be, Ha Ha! Here's my boy.
Also, you are just full of sass & verve. I love it! You are another powerful, creative, entrepreneur, please include a link to your business next time. It inspires me to see women following their dreams (tangible ones!) by having their own businesses.
Julie, I've thought of a different dream I once had which is quite silly and not at all worthy of analysis but still wanted to share ... I can't 'explain' it, but do recall it as vividly as the night I had it over 15 years ago while very pregnant. Like real life, I was nearing the end of my pregnancy but not 100% sure whether I would be delivering a boy or girl but nevertheless sooooo eager to know! Insurance wouldn't cover another sonogram so I had to go with an early report that it was most likely going to be a girl. In the dream I was home in Radford visiting my parents and while in church began to feel serious labor pains ... during "halftime" (goofy dream addition ... what church service has a halftime?!!), I decided it would be best to leave (in reality, I never did like the sermon part anyway hahaha) so off to the hospital we went. While riding in the backseat, I discovered that, like a kangaroo, I actually had a pouch and could actually "peek" inside and know for sure which sex I'd be delivering! Always the adventurous one, I decided to be naughty and sneak a peek. As I opened the pouch and peered in, to my astonishment I saw the cutest but most surprising little thing ... a puppy! As my husband eagerly waited for me to report our child's sex, all I could say is .... "We're going to have ... a beagle!"
- Leslie
added by Julie--since you mentioned beagles, must show you my precious Ryder, dachshund/beagle mix, 1993-2007. I'm going to insert his pic, hopefully will be where it is supposed to be, Ha Ha! Here's my boy.
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